Sing for me, just once...

So, I'll always have this soft corner for Alternative Rock. It just expresses me well. Even though I really don't have a favourite genre, my mood decided my genre. So I basically listen to all types of music...different phases, situations, frames of mind bring different music to my ears. So anger goes well with Children of Bodom, ALWAYS! Passion and craze goes well with Metallica. Classics are forever welcome in rock and metal both. A dancing mood brings on clubbing and hip hop to some extent. Then obviously Hindi music songs..the emotional ones and the fun ones too...and other genres which soothe emotional trauma. Basically all goes for me.

I feel like #Lifehouse currently. Jason Wade's soothing voice! I just love how the band's music touches me. Every song has something fabulous about it. Something that attracts me to each and every word and tune. All time favourites are Everything, Hanging by a moment, Sick cycle carousel, Take me away, You and me, You belong to me, Halfway gone, Broken and the list goes on....

There's something in Jason Wade's voice.. something totally attractive...it sounds so honest and so from the heart, you want to believe all he's singing. I also just loovee the lyrics...if I would want to express myself I would use those words. Everything about Lifehouse works for me. And I can listen to their songs over and over again... it's just so relaxing and reassuring.

Luck.Runs.Out

28th Oct 2011.
How I waited for this day to arrive.
May- i got to know METALLICA would be coming to India. it was completely unbelievable and an impossible thing to ever happen. however, soon it was confirmed on Metallica's website that they would indeed be touring India, not only Bangalore but Delhi as well. *omg*
June- waited desperately for ticket information
July- reserved tickets and soon paid for them and got confirmation
The wait till October was unbearable - half believing that this would actually happen..all sorts of doubts crossed everyone- maybe just a joke.
But when in October first week we held the tickets in our hands, it seemed Yes after all it is true! It was a long wait but oh-so-worth-it!!

And we engaged in making grand plans for the day! That included taking off for the day from work, I mean I had to be there from the start! We planned to go early to get in fast and also to chill and meet friends before going in. Basically start the party early!

And then came the day! The 28th of October 2011. All night till 4 am I was listening to Metallica songs..guessing the probable set list and being all excited - could hardly sleep- coz we were up at 8am. Finally got ready and put on the Metallica tshirt and off with friends to the venue. Few people were there but not that many yet. It was 11 am. I left my brother and his friends at the gate since they didn't wanna hang with me and my friends.

I went ahead with my friends and we set up our music (Metallica ofcourse) in the car and the other stuff we had planned..i met my other friends..and everyone was superrr excited. But the phone signal was not working because I tried to contact my brother and I couldn't get through for over 2 hours. And then we went to the mall to use the washroom, from there I connected and got to know that my brother had fainted and all..I panicked! I packed food and drinks for him n rushed back..but I could not get in touch with him because of 2 reasons:
1. No SIGNAL
2. The crowd had swelled to a crazy extent and there was a swarm of people and my brother was in the centre of it

That's Akant and I to the right.
And everyone, including Sanjana and Kunal to the bottom. Sanjeeta was with her friends at the time.
And Arpan I could not find anyway!

Well, we let the people get in first, gates opened at 4. In my hyperness and frenzied anxiety, I could just not tolerate being in the crowd. So we entered towards the end, and sat around far from the stage, bought some merchandise and tried to feel better. Again I went on two searched around the place but no trace of dear Arpan. Finally some announcement was made asking people to move back and it appeared like people were not complying since it was impossible with no one to guide them and the firang guy on the mic called the audience "Buttheads". It was India and he thought he could get away by calling us that. Just really pathetic. And a reason why the crowd became so angry. Worse of it, nothing started till 6 pm..people had been waiting for ages for something to start- there was no opening act - nothing was happening and we were all just getting impatient. Then eventually someone picks up the mic- the same firang guy and declares that there are some"technical glitches" due to which the concert is postponed and asks us to "come tomorrow". I mean random guy, no apologies, nothing. Just a come tomorrow. like wtf. everyone was too shocked to realise what hit them. And some 20 people out of a crowd of 25,000 got really agitated and angered by this announcement and started the vandalism. they had come from so far around the country and waited for so long just to hear this? the point is that it's not the people who should be blamed if you put any crowd in any country who are crazy abt Metallica and have been waiting all their life to listen to them and you are treated horribly and told off like cattle - you can't expect them to just suck it ! There have been riots over shows being postponed in countries, at least nothing that bad happened here. And everyone knows that the permission to hold a concert is not sought in a day, it took months to get permission for 28th and the organizers very well know that.

So ultimately we were victims of a terribly mismanaged event and the worse is that we had so many expectations out of it and had pegged out hopes on it and hardly expected it to go so horribly wrong. Pathetic, sick organization. Also highlighted by the fact that they sold more tickets than the capacity, people who booked tickets online did not receive them- had to wait in 5 hr long queues to get their ticket and were ultimately told that "get in anyway u want we don't care", and the 4 organizers of the shitty DNA networks are behind bars! rotting in jail-  thank god!

Got to know that eventually Arpan got wind of the cancellation as he was right up front with his friends and they left before and we also tried to escape before the scene got any worse. It was a task getting out but that's when the phne finally connected and I spoke to him. *phew*  All through, Akant was a constant support so I didn't feel all lost. And well we did have a decent enough time before the drama started.

Tried to wear off this nightmare by going to chilis and having an awesome meal and the depression hangs over but should pass off- by listening to some more Metallica. Ah!

Comrade, it's the Animal Farm!

I'm so glad to have read this masterpiece! What an amazing book, the Animal Farm by George Orwell. Through the story of an animal farm, where its animals rise to rebellion, the author presents the facts about the socialist regime of Stalin in the Soviet Union. It unveils what the so-called "socialism" of Stalin did to the country and its people and how the corrupt leaders at the top benefited by exploiting those at the bottom. The book also manages to highlight the problems seen in a democracy as well as a capitalist society.

The best part about the book is the symbolism used to represent real people through animals with the exact characteristics of the people. An amazing way to get the point across!

One thing is for sure- the book opens a forum for discussion if nothing else and fascinates the mind to think deeper!

Onto the next one by Orwell- 1984! 

90210 Fever!

So, I'm completely hooked onto 90210, a little late I guess, but oh well, these shows are addictive! I am season 2 currently, and I just can't seem to get enough, download-watch-download-watch all the time!!
While, it's all fun and drama and exciting, what I observed was how fast the teenagers grow up abroad. I mean they lose their innocence way too fast in life, at 15! They just lose their childhood and the joys of growing up! seriously, life's exciting when you progress to do new things which you were forbidden before but when it's your age. while different societies mature at different stages and have a distinct way of advancing, pregnancy at the age of 16 is ridiculous for any culture, yes I know child marriage is prevalent in India and everything that happens abroad has a mirror image here in India.

But I don't want to compare rural India with urban advanced countries. That's just messed up. Because for every pregnancy, drug abuse and whacko thing that they do, they have a mechanism to deal with it also, they have knowledge, awareness and institutions, solutions to deal with these things, but here back in India, there is no such concept. And that is just a horrifying experience.

Anyway, back to my point of comparing my life (let's be subjective) to this show, I can say it might be exaggerated to some extent, but all shows reflect the reality in society to a great extent. And that's where I feel, that Im thankful for my upbringing, I wouldn't wanna deal with such severe emotional drama and trauma that they are facing at 16. I was happy where I was and how I have progressed with things and made my choices. while everyone makes mistakes, i'm glad mine were the ones from which i learnt, and hence made the right choices.

                                                Oh but still I love the show and going to keep watching it, it's entertaining and oh Liam is uber hot! And thank god, in reality he's not 16! ha!

Work-o-holic!

Never thought I would be one! Well, not one yet! But a drained, tired and exhausted person everyday for sure. That's what I have become post my new job... working in ICRA as a Research Associate in the Public Finance Dept, really liking my job, no doubt...direct application of the Economics Hons I have studied. It's really good work...and very interesting.

Suddenly though I have changed. So much more aware..so much more knowledgeable..punctual..everyday I wake up on time, get ready for work and still have time to have breakfast! Unlike college, where I never woke up on time and scrambled to get to class ! Gosh, and how tired I get, sleep by 11 30...

Have I become old? Not quite! Yet, this feeling...need to get back to studying! And soon....

As I walk away.....

I don't want to start here, I don't want to open up to the world. But I just want to say one thing: I am honest. I believed I couldn't do that anymore and I couldn't see the other person living a farce. I can't be untrue to the person who was special to me, and still is and always will be....

Even though I do this, I hope sometime you will realise that I only meant the best for both of us.


And I will make it till where I have to go, and I will survive through high and low, and I will be free of this never-felt-before emotion, and I hope to be forgiven for my intention was to be honest, and I all need is some time, time to see this through, for me and you.

Let's go back to the start...

It is a wish come true! Harry Potter all over again! :)


After the 7th book got over, it left me with an empty space, with a feeling that something in my life was over and I would never be able to discover new things about it anymore. However, the movies were still remaining, and I eagerly awaited them. Finally on 15th July 2011, it all ended, with a very disappointing end to the series. 


However, an author knows her fans. So comes J.K. Rowling with a site just for her fans- "Pottermore". And omg, it is really a wonderful innovation! It required early registration, requesting membership by finding some items. Those who managed to do so in time got an email to join before it was opened for the world in October. I accessed my account yesterday and I am already addicted. I'm called Eyeprophecy148 and I have reached chapter 11 of the first book so far. Best thing: I was sorted into Gryffindor!!!! Happiest =)

Looking forward to collecting more trinkets, brewing potions, casting spells and duelling and loving what I adore the most: The Harry Potter feel. 


Oh and the most coveted thing on this site: Rowling's new thoughts- on different characters, places, objects etc which she has not shared in the books but which form the basis of the entire series. Just loving the information and understanding everything better! 

Gimme more

Yes! I am way over 18 years of age. But when I turned 18, I became an adult. The government allowed me certain things all at one go. So "legally" I could watch certain movies with explicit content, drive a car all on their own in a crazy city like Delhi,  could have married a stranger and created kids and taken care of them, all at 18! I could have legally dealt with all these and emotionally as well...being 18, I could suddenly handle the world.
Wow, so empowered...and I had only just entered college. But wait, legal age to drink in Delhi is 25. So, I can do all of these but I can't handle my drinks? I can't have any alcohol legally even now, 3 years have gone by. But did that stop me? Hahaha
And did I get caught? LOL

Well, why make such rules when everyone's flouting it? Why become strict only when the excise department is hounding your restaurant? Otherwise they serve anyone and everyone. Obviously if all the 18-24 year olds withdrew from drinking all together, watch how the companies' profits, restaurants' businesses and government's taxes go bust! Be a little sensible, dear Delhi and stop the crazy drunk fucks guys all around.

Also in awe of TOI for their amazing campaign-It's my life! Times of India Campaign

Am I that grown up?

Well, I can hardly believe that college is in fact over! It has been a month of no college and it still hasn't sunk in entirely. And where am I? Working !! Well, work is actually very interesting since it is a direct application of what I learnt in my course. That's why I'm liking it so much, but still one whole month of it already! Really can't seem to believe that!

Waking up on time, being responsible, taking care of things...college was a different world from all this!

Anyway, I like the people I hang out with in office, at least there's stuff to laugh about.. :)

Looking forward to an August full of extended weekends! so excited!
Usually my weekends spent catching up with friends and family..I feel so old.. I hardly have anytime for myself...

Although, I do want a new phone - Bold 4 now..thought enough and decided on it.. also cannot wait to buy iPad 2...and lusting after Dior's latest watch...hmm.. the Dior VIII...  <3 So a great wishlist is forming each day but nothing is really coming my way...!! Need to indulge..and soooon! 

Economics Overdose!

As I am studying for my exams, FINALS!, i realise how much i haven't studied this year. the most intriguing part is why didn't i study before. I am really liking the course and understanding everything. I am actually enjoying my course. I love Economics that is established. Maybe I should have pursued it further. But I'm glad i took it up.
Money and financial markets was interesting even though the paper was fucked up. Now preparing for Public Economics, while studying it's a pain to learn up..but the knowledge addition is worth the while!

Hoping that these exams do get over soon! 

High School Revisited

I remember the time in school when I was crazily crushing over multiple cute guys at the same time. Oh and add to that the endless list of cute celebrities! Obviously, there was always that one guy who was the hottest or I crushed on the most. I think I'm going back to that phase. Recently, I am losing it over Josh Duhamel. OMG he is soooo HOT.
Been watching Las Vegas, such an entertaining show. But seriously, he's such a hottie. Been long since I swooned over hot guys. Forgot they existed!

A Wasted Summer

All I can think of now is how to get through with these exams. They are eating up my brain! Cannot survive, losing hope.. they go on till 18th of fucking june. unbelievable.
Also kicked about so much happening now like every summer. But this summer is so screwed. I'm leaving for Leh right after exams.  So no time to indulge.

Finished reading India Unbound. Lovely book. Explored all of India's economic past since Independence, quite an enlightenment. Loved it. :)